Posts from — February 2005

My sweetie's back in the Us for a little while. Yaay. Now you get a whole week free of "I miss my sweetie" posts. I might even get some writing done. It's usually easier for me to write happy thoughts when I'm happy. That sounds kind of elementary. Anyways, that's all for right now, I've got to get some sleep.

I tell you the truth, living with anxiety really is not fun. I didn't believe it when I received the diagnosis a while back, but the more I read up on it, the more it explains why I am the way that I am. I started a new position yesterday and the day didn't go as well as I wanted it to. For some reason, I felt all panicky and everything during the training class. It may have been b/c there was a test at the end that I had to pass in order to keep the position. Well my throat was dry no matter how much water I drank. No matter how much caffeine I ingested, I couldn't keep from feeling sleepy. My eyes were all dry and I kept having to blink them. It was awful. Well the good news is that I passed the test with flying colors and they decided to keep me on. Whew. So you know that means that I won't be posting in this blog that often. I will be going to bed a little earlier than usual so that I won't have that problem. I did find an interesting website about anxiety. Here is the link. Check it out if you're one of the people affected by anxiety.

http://www.anxiety-and-depression-solutions.com/

I write what I do not wish to write
That which I wish to write stays locked up inside
I strive to write happy thoughts
Darnit, this writing thing is hard work
Especially when I’m a perfectionist that has to rhyme
Well at least I like to keep it short
That way I won’t bore you for too long
There see now it’s done, I’ve finished another one
Or have I?

A little explanation: I was thinking about the scripture that Paul writes about doing the bad that he doesn't want to do instead of the good that he wants to do.
I was attempting that kind of paradox since I've been trying to write my usual happy poetry even though I don't really feel happy right now… Well what I have written is a very rough draft. I have to figure out how to make it rhyme, but at least I've gotten something there…

Ya'll know that I am a woman of action right. So you know that I can't be content just sitting here complaining about my bf being overseas for who knows how long. So I've been hunting around for some sites that list ways that we can help those that are overseas, I found this site: http://www.noanie.com/ . Okay that's all about that for right now. I've got loads of work to do. Type with ya later.

Well I went downtown to the bank and lo and behold, I had left my darn ATM card at the house. Well quite naturally I was an unhappy camper, because that put me a day behind schedule. So instead of just going back home, I went to the library and published my ad issue. I couldn't make it a total loss. There was an art exhibit as part of the First Thursdays thing that they do downtwon every month. It was pretty interesting. It was an asian water color artist showing off her artwork. Now with me not being a visual arts person, all i can say is that her paintings were pretty. I know that's not really descriptive, but I'm tired man and I'm trying not to turn this into another "I miss Metim" post. Okay well I'm feeling a little sleepy now, so I'm going to try to get some sleep. I guess I must be in love or something like that b/c I haven't been sleeping well since he's been gone. Uggh that sounds like the line of a really clicheish (I don't think that's a word) love song. Okay now I know I need to go to sleep. I usually don't ramble. But this is my rambling blog so it's allowed here. Okay I'm really going to sleep now… I've got a lot to do tomorrow. Good night everybody.

I am volunteering with CARE International later on this year. I need to raise $275 before I can apply to go and I also need to raise the program fee. You can help out by checking out one of the items I am auctioning to raise money for this trip. The bidding starts at $4.99 with a buy it now price of $9.99

http://www.bidville.com/listings/details/index_asp.asp?itemnum=10533701

This would be a great item to auction on ebay or one of the other online auction places such as bidville.

Happy bidding.

GRR. I can't stand customer no service. I'm on hold with the darn credit card company because I forgot my password. They are taking forever and my mom is trying to call and I can't click over b/c as soon as I click over that's when they will come to the phone.

http://www.esoterically.net/log/
Interesting political blog for all you Dems out there